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penguinfaery) wrote2008-10-09 11:45 pm
penguinfaery) wrote2008-10-09 11:45 pm
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I'm doing this like ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
table_chan except I'm use to doing 15 anonmouse things, not 10, and already have 15 written.
So uhm..
TenFifteen Things I Wish I Could Say to Ten Different People Right Now:
1- I adore you. And I think, I hope I'm just reading into things too much because I ALWAYS do, but I always feel like I'm out of the loop, and one of the losers trying to chill with the cool kids when I'm with you. And it makes ever little thing stick out, and IDK how to find out if I'm reading into things without looking like a despertae idiot (Which I quiet likely am. This is a lot more me then anything you've done) I also hate that I am 90% sure you are just the epic sweetie you seem to be, but I've been burned by enough people I am on edge, and I so want to be a good friend to you. You mean a lot to me.
2- I hate feeling like I've lost you but I do. I think the small bits of damage left unchecked for...what a year now? Longer? Have finally caused it all to crumble. I hate that it's over something so shallow but when you only have one from of contact, I suppose something little can kill it, and I feel that all my efforts were struck down. I'd be willing to put in more of an effort, but it really does feel like a giant cockblock that has swallowed you whole life.
Pardon the term
3- Sweet seemed to be what you had going for you, and you push it away? Do you mean to be so viciouse? Or do you just not think about it?
4- I like you, I really do, I consider you a friend. And maybe it's just that being older has dulled it out for me and I don't remember high school so much so I have a culture shock, but Jesus I don't think I've ever meet someone with SO MUCH drama in their life. Take a chill pill, calm down and remember that fools rush in. The boy who cried wolf is more true then we'd like to think, and if everything is HOMG EPIC then after awhile people will be dulled down and when you REALLY need them they'll be emotional exhusted from the previouse "emergencies" . And you're not immortal, you need to be more careful.
5- I think...things have changed, a lot. But I also feel...I don't know. Closer? In diffrent way? I don't know how to say it. And I'm really glad for something, even if they don't feel good...I think you're growing A LOT in ways you previously wouldn't have even recognized as ways you needed to grow. I think you are becoming truly strong.
6- I like you so much and have missed you like crazy lately. It feels like we don't talk. And like 1, I wonder where I really, truly stand with you, and if I'm closer then I should be.
7- It's easier when you're angry. I'm keeping myself angry, because then I can support her through her pain. I still can't believe you, and it makes me so much more angry when I remember something good, and how happy I was to see you again. You were never judged for anything you didn't do, despite what you may have convinced others (And yourself)
8- I hope I'm not being to pushy with you. I feel really close to you, even if we haven't gotten tons of time to talk lately, and I think it'd crush me a lot if you thought I was some dumb weaboo or something.
9- You are so very intresting to me. I wish I felt like I knew what to say to you, because I'd like to get closer, but I generally end up feeling like an asshole whenever I try t talk to you.
10- You frustrated me so much sometimes, but I love you like whooooooa.
11- I understand. I think it was a dumb choice, but it's not my life and I don't have to live it, so I swallow that and understand. However, you have to live with the choice you've made, and I really don't want to be a casulity of the assumption things are the same, and don't require more work.
12- I love you. But I don't trust you farther then I can throw you. I half think I have you figured out through and though, and I'm half terrified you're gonna throw me a curve ball I can't cope with.
13- I'm so glad you found me again. I had no idea how much I missed you until you were back.
14- I hope I never overwhelm you. I'm so so so glad we're close. ♥
15- Oh jesus, I have never seen such cattiness in an rp. And I've rubbed elbows with some of the wank queens!
Nine Things About Myself:
9: I'm obsessive about checking e-mail.
8: My impression of a penis is my naked rat Dave.
7: I am terrified of submarines. And anything underwater, including but not limited to whales, ship wrecks, and large amount of open space, but submarines don't even need to BE underwater.
6: I use to wanna be a marine biologist. Or train whales. See 7 for why THAT didn't work out XD
5: I m a poster whore. I love them.
4: I love good use of complementary colors, and am repelled by bad use (Red/Green, Orange/Blue, Purple/Yellow)
3: If I have something tha I can rip into smaller pieces I will. Particularly little bits of frabric I can unweave.
2: I've worked with cadavers.
1: One of my biggest (And silliest_ pet peeves is people who don't know that a fractures bone, and a broken bone, are the same damned thing.
Eight Ways to Win My Heart:
8: Pay attention to me?
7: Don't belittle my opinions.And I know I'm not the best at returning that
6: Don't promise things you don't mean. I'd rather be disappointed a little by you saying no then disappointed (and pissed) a lot by you flaking out.
5: Chocolate.Kiona has the right idea
4: I'm very physical, I like cuddling, hugging, etc.
3: Know I need time to myself (and time with me and one or two friend alone) and that's not an insult to you.
2: Be respectful to me, you and those I care about. I don't care if you don't like em, but don't be a douche.
1: Uhm...be awesome?
Seven Things That Cross My Mind a Lot:
7: School
6: RP
5: Naruto
4: Cosplay
3: California
2: Pets
1: Money
Six Things I Do Before I Fall Asleep:
6: Cuddle.
5: Push the cat off my head a few times.
4: ...
3: Cuddle some more.
2: Set the alarm, or generally tell bev when to set the alarm.
1: Try not to fall aslee-
Five People Who Mean a Lot:
Shit. This is neither in order nor inclusive.
5: Toni
4: Alex
3: My mom
2: Ju
1: Bev
Four Things I'm Wearing Right Now:
4: ...
3: >>
2: <<
1: My crowley panties.
Three Songs I Listen to a Lot:
3: Chasing cars- Snow Patrol
2: You're gonna go far kid - Offspring
1: Love me dead-Ludo
Two Things I Want to Do Before I Die:
2: Be a con guest and not attendee
1: Direct a play
One Confession:
I feel so shallow with online people lately. And by lately I men the last few months. I use to get so close to people, and I don't know why, but lately I feel...that I never get past the surface. I don't know if it's from being burned so many times be people that I was obviously closer to then they were to me, or because I've had this fog in my head lately or what. I want to talk deeper to people, get closer, but I feel like I'm stepping on boundaries, and over assuming things. So I stay safe, and talk about fandoms and have typical "Hi, how are you, good...*silence for 45 minutes*" types conversations. And feel like a douche bag. Cause I know it's my fault and I'm afraid I'm losing people I do, or could care a lot about because of it.
As normal I'm gonna try not to reply to the anon things.
table_chan except I'm use to doing 15 anonmouse things, not 10, and already have 15 written.So uhm..
1- I adore you. And I think, I hope I'm just reading into things too much because I ALWAYS do, but I always feel like I'm out of the loop, and one of the losers trying to chill with the cool kids when I'm with you. And it makes ever little thing stick out, and IDK how to find out if I'm reading into things without looking like a despertae idiot (Which I quiet likely am. This is a lot more me then anything you've done) I also hate that I am 90% sure you are just the epic sweetie you seem to be, but I've been burned by enough people I am on edge, and I so want to be a good friend to you. You mean a lot to me.
2- I hate feeling like I've lost you but I do. I think the small bits of damage left unchecked for...what a year now? Longer? Have finally caused it all to crumble. I hate that it's over something so shallow but when you only have one from of contact, I suppose something little can kill it, and I feel that all my efforts were struck down. I'd be willing to put in more of an effort, but it really does feel like a giant cockblock that has swallowed you whole life.
Pardon the term
3- Sweet seemed to be what you had going for you, and you push it away? Do you mean to be so viciouse? Or do you just not think about it?
4- I like you, I really do, I consider you a friend. And maybe it's just that being older has dulled it out for me and I don't remember high school so much so I have a culture shock, but Jesus I don't think I've ever meet someone with SO MUCH drama in their life. Take a chill pill, calm down and remember that fools rush in. The boy who cried wolf is more true then we'd like to think, and if everything is HOMG EPIC then after awhile people will be dulled down and when you REALLY need them they'll be emotional exhusted from the previouse "emergencies" . And you're not immortal, you need to be more careful.
5- I think...things have changed, a lot. But I also feel...I don't know. Closer? In diffrent way? I don't know how to say it. And I'm really glad for something, even if they don't feel good...I think you're growing A LOT in ways you previously wouldn't have even recognized as ways you needed to grow. I think you are becoming truly strong.
6- I like you so much and have missed you like crazy lately. It feels like we don't talk. And like 1, I wonder where I really, truly stand with you, and if I'm closer then I should be.
7- It's easier when you're angry. I'm keeping myself angry, because then I can support her through her pain. I still can't believe you, and it makes me so much more angry when I remember something good, and how happy I was to see you again. You were never judged for anything you didn't do, despite what you may have convinced others (And yourself)
8- I hope I'm not being to pushy with you. I feel really close to you, even if we haven't gotten tons of time to talk lately, and I think it'd crush me a lot if you thought I was some dumb weaboo or something.
9- You are so very intresting to me. I wish I felt like I knew what to say to you, because I'd like to get closer, but I generally end up feeling like an asshole whenever I try t talk to you.
10- You frustrated me so much sometimes, but I love you like whooooooa.
11- I understand. I think it was a dumb choice, but it's not my life and I don't have to live it, so I swallow that and understand. However, you have to live with the choice you've made, and I really don't want to be a casulity of the assumption things are the same, and don't require more work.
12- I love you. But I don't trust you farther then I can throw you. I half think I have you figured out through and though, and I'm half terrified you're gonna throw me a curve ball I can't cope with.
13- I'm so glad you found me again. I had no idea how much I missed you until you were back.
14- I hope I never overwhelm you. I'm so so so glad we're close. ♥
15- Oh jesus, I have never seen such cattiness in an rp. And I've rubbed elbows with some of the wank queens!
Nine Things About Myself:
9: I'm obsessive about checking e-mail.
8: My impression of a penis is my naked rat Dave.
7: I am terrified of submarines. And anything underwater, including but not limited to whales, ship wrecks, and large amount of open space, but submarines don't even need to BE underwater.
6: I use to wanna be a marine biologist. Or train whales. See 7 for why THAT didn't work out XD
5: I m a poster whore. I love them.
4: I love good use of complementary colors, and am repelled by bad use (Red/Green, Orange/Blue, Purple/Yellow)
3: If I have something tha I can rip into smaller pieces I will. Particularly little bits of frabric I can unweave.
2: I've worked with cadavers.
1: One of my biggest (And silliest_ pet peeves is people who don't know that a fractures bone, and a broken bone, are the same damned thing.
Eight Ways to Win My Heart:
8: Pay attention to me?
7: Don't belittle my opinions.
6: Don't promise things you don't mean. I'd rather be disappointed a little by you saying no then disappointed (and pissed) a lot by you flaking out.
5: Chocolate.
4: I'm very physical, I like cuddling, hugging, etc.
3: Know I need time to myself (and time with me and one or two friend alone) and that's not an insult to you.
2: Be respectful to me, you and those I care about. I don't care if you don't like em, but don't be a douche.
1: Uhm...be awesome?
Seven Things That Cross My Mind a Lot:
7: School
6: RP
5: Naruto
4: Cosplay
3: California
2: Pets
1: Money
Six Things I Do Before I Fall Asleep:
6: Cuddle.
5: Push the cat off my head a few times.
4: ...
3: Cuddle some more.
2: Set the alarm, or generally tell bev when to set the alarm.
1: Try not to fall aslee-
Five People Who Mean a Lot:
Shit. This is neither in order nor inclusive.
5: Toni
4: Alex
3: My mom
2: Ju
1: Bev
Four Things I'm Wearing Right Now:
4: ...
3: >>
2: <<
1: My crowley panties.
Three Songs I Listen to a Lot:
3: Chasing cars- Snow Patrol
2: You're gonna go far kid - Offspring
1: Love me dead-Ludo
Two Things I Want to Do Before I Die:
2: Be a con guest and not attendee
1: Direct a play
One Confession:
I feel so shallow with online people lately. And by lately I men the last few months. I use to get so close to people, and I don't know why, but lately I feel...that I never get past the surface. I don't know if it's from being burned so many times be people that I was obviously closer to then they were to me, or because I've had this fog in my head lately or what. I want to talk deeper to people, get closer, but I feel like I'm stepping on boundaries, and over assuming things. So I stay safe, and talk about fandoms and have typical "Hi, how are you, good...*silence for 45 minutes*" types conversations. And feel like a douche bag. Cause I know it's my fault and I'm afraid I'm losing people I do, or could care a lot about because of it.
As normal I'm gonna try not to reply to the anon things.