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penguinfaery) wrote2007-07-15 10:42 am
penguinfaery) wrote2007-07-15 10:42 am
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Since apparently I have to post it in my journal to have my life suck, here you go.
Since I got back from AX:
My mom has been in and out of the hospital, and bedridden more then a few days.
I've been having realtionship problems, both with my GF and several friends. Which is a lot of why I haven't been online. My time at home is spent arguing, or trying to put together the pieces from arguments.
I've been having severe mental issues, inclusing extreme depression with no way to get medication or any sorta of help as I have no health insurance, and Aurora Mental health clinic it's a 3-4 month wait. I've thought seriosuly about suicide several times and almost did it once.
My household has gone through 5 cars in 4 weeks through an unbeliuvable bit of bad luck. And the new car I just bought a few days ago is not working. Because of this, a good chunk of my loan money is gone, and not in the places it should be. That's around $2000 that right now could be down the drain. When you don't make ends meet, that's a big hunk of cash.
SO yes. Other people have bigger issuesm but mine are not none exsistant. And I should have gone on Haitus, but I thought being online for 24 hours+ a week would be enough, and I've been keeping up (If at a minimal level)
I'm just so effing hurt right now. Yeah, I didn't feel like I was doing enough. That's why I kept asking for more to do. I have had issues, a lot, I just am not the kind to post them like this, and not here on LJ. It's just not what I'm comfortable with. It's not to keep people out, I just don't do it. I don't like talking to people about my problems unless I have to. A lot of this shit my best friends don't know. Online is my escape so I don't discuss it alot, sans to rant.
AND fucking A now my mom's pissed at me for being online.
Since I got back from AX:
My mom has been in and out of the hospital, and bedridden more then a few days.
I've been having realtionship problems, both with my GF and several friends. Which is a lot of why I haven't been online. My time at home is spent arguing, or trying to put together the pieces from arguments.
I've been having severe mental issues, inclusing extreme depression with no way to get medication or any sorta of help as I have no health insurance, and Aurora Mental health clinic it's a 3-4 month wait. I've thought seriosuly about suicide several times and almost did it once.
My household has gone through 5 cars in 4 weeks through an unbeliuvable bit of bad luck. And the new car I just bought a few days ago is not working. Because of this, a good chunk of my loan money is gone, and not in the places it should be. That's around $2000 that right now could be down the drain. When you don't make ends meet, that's a big hunk of cash.
SO yes. Other people have bigger issuesm but mine are not none exsistant. And I should have gone on Haitus, but I thought being online for 24 hours+ a week would be enough, and I've been keeping up (If at a minimal level)
I'm just so effing hurt right now. Yeah, I didn't feel like I was doing enough. That's why I kept asking for more to do. I have had issues, a lot, I just am not the kind to post them like this, and not here on LJ. It's just not what I'm comfortable with. It's not to keep people out, I just don't do it. I don't like talking to people about my problems unless I have to. A lot of this shit my best friends don't know. Online is my escape so I don't discuss it alot, sans to rant.
AND fucking A now my mom's pissed at me for being online.