penguinfaery | (no subject)

Hello!

I think you are going through a very yo-yo like period in your life, but I think you are generally handling it well, from what I've seen. I think you seem a bit mature for your age, but not so much that it feels like you've left something behind. And you've always been so very sweet, and make me smile every time I talk to you.

MEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!

No.

JK.

Gimme a second to figure out all my thoughts.

The bad, then the good. I'll crush you, then give you a lollipop.

I've never quiet figured out how you change your mind on things. I'll try to convince you of something and you'll be like "No, no, no..." (Both joking and seriously depending on the subject) and then some day, months, years later we'll be discussing it and you'll be like "Yeah, I agree all the way." And I'm like "...wut." I think sometimes you get hung up on unimportant things that matter, and in doing so miss more important things, particularly in how people think about you. (for example, you'll worry about making one thing just so, so no one will think badly of you, and miss that in all the fuss in making it just so you've narrowed in on the first point, if that makes sense) I'm sure there's other bad, but I can't think of any right now (I'll call you like...4 am in 3 weeks and be like "Btw...this too") I also think, re: you're creative ideas, we need to work on stream lining explanations (Although you've gotten much better. And I have little room to talk. But I think you get the idea people aren't interested, when in truth it's not the IDEAS their not interested in, it's hearing it told out to them in very, very precise detail, verbally, for hours.)

Now the good.

I think you're amazingly creative, a wonderful writer. I really admire how much research and care you put into things. I think you've gotten better at taking advice. I think you are one of the strongest people I know, and one of the biggest growths I've seen in a person (You're pwned only I think by Bev, and let's face it, that's kinda like being pwned by the Micheal Phelps of growth so...) I know the past year has been rough, but I think you handled it SO well, and I was SO proud of you, and I feel like we went through fire and came out with only some like scaring. And I love you so very much ♥

o well

I think you're super sweet.

Past that this all should be taken as REALLY rough opinion:

I think you are...like, too unsure of yourself? Like...I have never seen anything bad in you except you're insecureness, and I'm sure it's THERE but it doesn't like...it's not...you're not BAD in anyway I've ever seen. I've never heard anything negative about you, or experienced it, but I have sen posts where you seem to feel like you have a lot to dislike. And I just haven't seen any of it.

You're very friendly. You reached out to me in a small, but important way and it really did matter. You're a good rper, you play one of my baby pups and never made me great my teeth or go "...what." at ANYTHING you posted, even though we have different styles.

And I think that's all I can say now with ANY sort of sureness. In general, I like you a lot from what I've seen and hope to see more :3

haha I get that a lot. I have really horrible self esteem. I try not to make it obvious, but that's always been an issue with me. Just ignore me when I get like that though, I normally get over it pretty quick.

Thank you ~ :) I'm glad I didn't ruin the character. I get nervous about playing characters that are popular, but I try my best at them.

And me too! I'll always be around. <3

*nod* I'm the same way, so I know where you're coming from.

You really didn't. I was nervous to apply cause he's on of those character I can go nuts if I think the person is "Wrong" and you never bothered me.

♥

I think I can handle it.

I love you. I want to talk to you more and I really want you to get your computer fixed so we can talk more.

I think you can often make things....a competition? maybe that's not the right word but an attempt to one up where it doesn't need to be. You don't do it much with us, maybe because you are comfortable with us, but I have seen you do it. I think sometimes you don't think things through, or you get fixated on one point of them, and don't think about the other bits (For example, I firmly believe that you do not like Deidara, you like fandom Deidara which is in fact Hidan)

I think you are gorgeous, and loving, and a wonderful cuddler, and someone wonderful to confided in, and I love your accent.

I still love dei (both some fandom and cannon Dei).... (I like Hidan more... and refuse to admit it) Even if I just did...

BWA HA HA HA HA~!

You fucking love Hidan.

Shhhh... don't tell Toni that I freaking love Hidan!

*is curious*

I love you.

No. I think you're super sweet. I wish I saw you more, which is as much (if not more) me then you. You are hot and sexy and funny and cute. Sometimes I must admit I skim your posts, cause IDK the fandom but...psh. I really admire that in the fae X meeting, even though you were sometimes quiet it was...contemplative, and you spoke up when necessary.

Bad things. I think you a level of separation, but...I've already felt that dissolving between us, so I think it may just be a matter of getting closer. Our IM convos die D: And you've always come through for me in the end, but sometimes the middle are shaky.

In before the slaughter.

You have grown in leaps and bounds. I still think you can get worked up, but you are much more open to others opinions on things now, and I generally feel like I can say something to you and be respected even if our opinions different which isn't something I feel with everyone, and I know I didn't use to feel with you.

I would like to be in a game with you again someday.

I'm also really impressed with your art growth. You have long ways to go (And I'm saying this as a peer, not someone above you cause god knows I do to) but you also seem....a lot more devoted to growing then you use to.

I still think sometimes you can jump into the pot while it's still boiling so to speak but...eh. I can't talk too much XD

*rolls*

YOU'RE TOO FUCKING HARD ON YOURSELF. Seriously, people love you for a reason, and I can honestly say with me, when I am down you really DO make a difference, you're not useless about it at all. This is both a positive and a negative depending on the level it's out but you are very receptive to people's emotions

You're a phenomenal rper, and I always enjoy talking to you. I can't wait to spend time with you this summer \o/ I'm glad that we made friends like whoa. You are super sweet and funny, and I love talking to you ♥

Comment moar. XD Though seriously, I know you use to have a lot of issues with people feeling like you ignored them, and on my end it's gone.

Curious Tex is curious to see if you think better of me after a year of separation.

The bad:

I think you jump without thinking things through. I think you're too enamored with name brands (and names in general), the latest example being your copic markers which are really not suited for your style and way over priced for reason you don't have use for. You seemed so caught up on that fact they were ~copics~ that you didn't research that something like Tria would be MUCH more useful for you and more bang for your buck. (This is not the only time I've seen you do it, it's just a perfect recent example) I think you don't know what you're doing with your life still, and you're trying to do everything at once (I personally think you'd be an amazing theater techy, and a horrible English teacher because I don't think you have the attention span for kids, but you do have the visual detailed orientation and energy for backstage work) I think you're love of Japan, and Japanese things is tainting your thought process in many things. I think you defend people to much, and at inappropriate times, and in general you don't know when NOT to say something (it's better to stay silent and look foolish then speak and prove it, and all the crap)

The good:

You're amazingly fun to be around (NDK when we saw each other was a blast, and you could have easily been a pill like others). You are energetic and happy and cheerful. You are cute, especially when you play things like your eyes up. When you DO take something serious you can show extreme amounts of dedication, such as your art. You are friendly and creative. You are sweet, you try hard, and you make a very nice web site :3. I do in fact think better of you, and even though this section is physically smaller, I also think it's more important

Editted to even out examples.

As far as the Copics go, I did leap into it more excitedly than I should have. I saw what you guys where doing with them (you and Ju) as well as what some others on the internets could do with them and I wanted them like fire. I did do some research though, but I could have done more considering their cost. My Theatre adviser (also head of my dept and Costume Design classes' professor) has been using Tria's so I've actually heard a lot about them, which is why I haven't invested in them before. She kept saying that they work well enough but they don't do quite what she was looking for, that they don't blend as well as she likes etc etc. I extremely value her opinion, and when she saw some of the work I've done so far with the Copics she was impressed enough with what they could do to purchase the same set and what not as I did. It was calculated risk, but it worked out well I think.

I agree I'm being flippant about my life, but I know I want to continue doing something artist and involving learning languages with it. Though if I do my URTA's** next spring and I get a wicked scholarship, I'll say fuck going to Taiwan or Japan to continue my studies, and go immediately into graduate school for design.

BTW speaking of artsy stuff, I found a pic I did of Lucy when I was LOLFAILING at being a faeX member that I still really like and wanted to upload to my new DA. I wanted to check and see if I could upload it since the character is technically you're guys' bb now.

**URTA's are like... AP Art or something... all I know is that actors and Theatre designers go to Chicago every year and in essence 'audtion' for schools through out the nation. There's always at least one or two that get scholarships for grad school to places like UCLA or Carnige Mellon.

We actually rarely use copics, cause Ju does most the coloring and Ju hates them (And no, IDK how she gets them to blend THAT well either). I am glad they work for you, and aren't a /waste/ of money, but Copics are...they valuable if you can drop a few $1000 on markers not a few $100, because what makes them valuable is the refills, and add ons, not the actual markers themselves. The Tria's came to mind because they have the three tips.

I think the theater thing is a strong place for you (maybe not the only but a strong one), and focusing maybe on having an oriental influence? Or something not...teaching kidlets. Maybe even something in Japan that's not teaching kidlets. (korean needs translators I know a lot cause everyones like lol japan)

Feel free. A link to the faex account would be awesome, but it's no biggie.

How can I resist. Be harsh.

Bad:

I think you are not open enough to foreign ideas/concepts and that you make up your mind and have issues changing it (Then again I also think *I* have an issue with knowing when you're being devil's advocate or not, so take that one with a grain of salt) I also don't understand how we can have such opposing tastes (Which isn't necessarily *bad* just...odd)

Good:

I think you're smart. Like, brilliant. You are one of the few people in the world who has really made me feel dumb. I think you are very sweet in your own way, and you crack me up ALL the time. Of the people I know, I think you are the one who will have the biggest impact on the world as it matter (like...I know some creative folks who I think will be famous, but like...I think you really can go somewhere in politics) You are, in general someone I REALLY enjoy talking to, and also someone who's opinion I highly value.

I CAN TAKE IT.

I think you are really funny and interesting. I love reading your posts. I always feel very much like you...listen when i talk (Even if you may listen in chunks XD)

I do sometimes wish you around more, but such is life.