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Terra ([personal profile] penguinfaery) wrote2011-03-27 05:44 pm

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Soooo cleaning up the old house is not what I wanna be doing. Too many memories. And now I have to start being pratical about things. Do I save this really cute picture of us or toss it? What do I do with the star mobile she made for me for christmas? Or the triptych I made to represent the three of us?

Do we get a new Jason for Starfest or go Jason-less? He seems a weird slasher movie icon to not have, but its weird just replacing him. Is her color up for grabs now in the color party or is it retired. Idk, it is all very confusing. What things in general are retired as "ours" and what do I just cut away the Ju part?

This room is full of Ju's ghost. Little things all over, and they kill me. It is strange how similar this is to someone dying. Except Ju decided to go.

I'm sorry I have been posting a storm, it just helps to get everything written. Don’t feel you need to reply at all, but all the replies and support have meant so much to me. Even the little ones.

[identity profile] darkangel-wings.livejournal.com 2011-03-28 12:25 am (UTC)(link)
As for what to get rid of and what not to, I'd say that for the things you're unsure of right now, wait. Maybe get stuff out of your sight so you aren't running into it constantly, but don't throw things away unless you're sure you want them gone. It sucks to get rid of something you later regret, where once emotions have cooled you may find it easier to part with some things, or may desire to keep things without them being painful.

Other stuff... just oh god, it's so hard to have to make decisions about what things "belong" to an ex. That's one of the hardest breakup things to deal with, in my opinion.

[identity profile] tigbit.livejournal.com 2011-03-28 01:12 am (UTC)(link)
It does help to write things down; don't apologize for that. And you definitely have my support if you'd like it. ♥

[identity profile] cloudyskies2046.livejournal.com 2011-03-28 03:04 am (UTC)(link)
I agree with darkangel_wings on the stuff bit. Give it two months, and you'll be more at peace with it and be able to see clearly what you actually want to keep. Of course, that doesn't help when you're trying to move...

It's also really great that you're moving, because quite conveniently you get a fresh start and new decorations can go a long way.

(Anonymous) 2011-03-28 05:09 pm (UTC)(link)
write it out. it helps.

also... keep a box of things. write on it something along the lines of "do not open until im ready"

when you are ready, open it back up, re-analyze it.

<3