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Terra ([personal profile] penguinfaery) wrote2011-04-03 01:34 pm
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So I am feeling distinctly better. Not that things...are better. I am still kinda waiting for the other angsty foot to fall but...yesterday was amazingly awesome (girls day out lunch with Sarah's mom + Shopping + cheap 90 minutes massages + wine + Disney), and I slept well last night, and am just feeling pretty damn good about things. Me and Ju have been writing back and forth, and...I got a lot out. It might have burned that ridge, but it also I think...is why I feel so good. At least in part.

I did smash my finger something wicked in the car door. I don't think it's broken but...it is sorta a purple sausage.

The new apartment is wonderful, and I can't wait till it's all put together so we can have a million parties. The guy across the way is...not a friend from highschool, but someone I always enjoyed talking to, and we might watch his baby~!

And we also had crazy people steal our "Caution, contaminated room!" signs with the radioactive symbol on it and rep[lace it with thsi (Sorry for the sideways ness)

And completely unrelated:

So for the last couple off months I have...not really wanted to rp guys, at all. In game I mainly focused on De and Rapunzel, and I just thought it was a mixture of time and the fact me and Ju had like...20 rps with me playing Dean and I was over whelmed and burnt out.

...and now we are broken up and I wanna play guys again. Like in the past week the want to play Eddie, Cuthbert, Dean, Axel, Reno, Jack Sawyer, Sai, Sawyer Sawyer (The Lost one), Subaru, Michael (Sorta male), Sirius and Naruto (Plus a whole slew of male OCs) have all popped up. And not that I haven't poked at those muses in the last few months, they just...weren't clicking, at all. I've even wanted to go back and tag me and Ju's Sam&Dean rps, which is obviously a terrible idea.

And me and Be were discussing it. I think...Ju told me she didn't like chicks(Sometimes). So playing a male character with my lesbian girlfriend who didn't like girls was making me...uncomfortable with the idea of playing a male at all.

It's weird because...I was looking at it from the angle of "Dude, why do I only wanna play girls lately? What's goin on..." And now it is like 'You were interrogating the text from the wrong perspective.'

IDK it is weird. And I don't know really what to do with it.

Except play the shit out of some dudes.

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