In the spirit of actually posting on my LJ...

[penguinfaery]

10- I hate having celebrity crushes. It... embarrassed me? It is part self-consciousness (because lol, I'd never have a chance with ____), and part the fact as a younger person I had too good an imagination and fell to hard. So I'd make up a person with this celebrity/charact face and end up in love with someone that didn't exist.

9- I originally said I liked girl because everyone else I was with said they were bi too. It was Be and Casey, and that was when Be got the idea to start presuing me.

8- Sometimes I really hate being over weight. But I hate more changing myself to match what other people think is right. Our society is so fatphobic it's not even funny. I have never felt like my life has been seriously altered by other people because I am a lesbian, poor, or female. Dirty looks, comments, sure, but nothing that can't be brushed off at the end of that day. I feel it all the freakin' time because I am fat. As much as I wanna stad up and be a BBW, if someone offered me a skinny pill I'd take it in a heart beat.

7- I hate working. I have a wonderful job with a great company, and I am so thankful for it, but I am not a 9-5 Monday-Friday type of girl. It is the biggest inspiration to finish school.

6- I started making art to impress a boy. He later became my BFF for a few years, and art has been my BFF for many more.

5- I am extremely uncomfortable inviting myself into places. I won't join an rp friend are at unless they invite me, I won't push myself into other people's plans, even if I know they are awesome people who wouldn't mind.

4- I use tumblr to look at porn more then anything else. Some of it is because a lot of the "porn" is gorgeous. But also...just to look at porn.

3- It still bugs me, 4 months later, almost every day. I try not to deal with it because...there's just nothing else I can do. I tried to be healthy about it and got majorly cock blocked (like most of our relationship, bada ch~! Ha ha ew it was such a bad relationship D:) but I think she seriously broke something in me, and I dunno how to fix it. I don't want her back in my life in any way, shape or form, she is a gross person, I just...I dunno. So I just ignore it and focus on all the good I have. Which thankfully is a lot.

2- Building on the last in a good way...I cry when I think about what awesome friend I have. Literally. Not like every time, and really I cry easily. But I have such awesome people in my life.

1- Everytime "I Will Survive" come on my radio I turn my car radio up all the way and belt it.

Some of those are pretty srs btw.