I don't know wtf to do to solve it. I apologised. I said I meant no harm. I said I didn't do anything/talk behind anyone's back. Who the fuck would I talk to, anyway? Oh yeah. Lulz. I'm going to go talk to someone about Miharu that knows her! The same with you. If I were stupid enough or pissed off enough with something that would make me complain, I would go to someone that neither of you knew.
That's the point. I'm not going around showing it to people who have no business in it. Especially since it wasn't about you, it was about Miharu.
You're right. I did miss that. However, before that, it was August. That isn't saying a lot about someone who is ranting about me not commenting. When it came to the Christmas post, all mp3s were given to those who commented. Anyone who didn't comment, I didn't give one too. If I said anything like that, it was my card/letter post. If you didn't post there, I didn't have your address. Otherwise, i have no idea what you're talking about.
I apologised here (http://fufuberrysoda.livejournal.com/105583.html?thread=2277999#t2277999), however. I assumed that I did so earlier, but I supposed I was so wrapped up in trying to figure out WTF WAS GOING on, since no one bothered to tell me.
No, I didn't. I might have complained a few times that you were on hiatus so often and I wanted to kick things into gear, but I wanted to wait for you to do it first. I've never spoken a malicious word about you to anyone. I do consider you working things through with. That's why I'm pushing through how upset I am, how sick I've made myself and how scared I am to comment and how much I dread what you might possibly say next to keep talking. I do care about you. If I didn't care about you, I would have ban_set you the moment you posted this or reported you to lj for harassment or something. If I didn't care I wouldn't be talking. And I'm afraid of plenty of others. As I said before there's... something about talking over LJ that makes it easier. I guess it feels like there's a bigger wall between us. Even ask moineau, who I've been friends with for about five years. I have a really hard time talking to her and will go through extremely long bouts of silence to the extent of not talking to her for month(s). It's nothing personal, I swear it. However, I imagine you intimidate me a little more than most other people because you're just that kind of person. If I met like... Nicole Kidman I'd be the same way. You're smart, pretty, good at what you do, an amazing artist, a cosplayer and you're just so incredible that I have no idea why the hell you'd ever even talk to me.
When it comes to VDL, of course I care. I just get caught up in the OOC. I want to reply, but every time I join something I feel... I don't know. Left out. Or the fact that most people there hate me. That doesn't help me in the slightest. I don't find it as enjoyable as I used to. Part of it is you aren't around as much as I'd like and the other part, of course, is the hostility from other members, the drama that always seems to be going on and... most people that I RPed with are gone now. Every day I have it set in my mind that I'm going to go through the posts, fix them up, remove some of my characters, etc. but it never comes. I can't bring myself to do it. Doing that would mean that I have to confront the situation, the situation that VDL isn't my favourite RP anymore, it isn't free of drama, and it's full of people I'm not terribly fond of. Though it should be obvious who those people are.
I'm not sure what you mean about "shallow surface shit," though.
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That's the point. I'm not going around showing it to people who have no business in it. Especially since it wasn't about you, it was about Miharu.
You're right. I did miss that. However, before that, it was August. That isn't saying a lot about someone who is ranting about me not commenting. When it came to the Christmas post, all mp3s were given to those who commented. Anyone who didn't comment, I didn't give one too. If I said anything like that, it was my card/letter post. If you didn't post there, I didn't have your address. Otherwise, i have no idea what you're talking about.
I apologised here (http://fufuberrysoda.livejournal.com/105583.html?thread=2277999#t2277999), however. I assumed that I did so earlier, but I supposed I was so wrapped up in trying to figure out WTF WAS GOING on, since no one bothered to tell me.
No, I didn't. I might have complained a few times that you were on hiatus so often and I wanted to kick things into gear, but I wanted to wait for you to do it first. I've never spoken a malicious word about you to anyone. I do consider you working things through with. That's why I'm pushing through how upset I am, how sick I've made myself and how scared I am to comment and how much I dread what you might possibly say next to keep talking. I do care about you. If I didn't care about you, I would have ban_set you the moment you posted this or reported you to lj for harassment or something. If I didn't care I wouldn't be talking. And I'm afraid of plenty of others. As I said before there's... something about talking over LJ that makes it easier. I guess it feels like there's a bigger wall between us. Even ask
When it comes to VDL, of course I care. I just get caught up in the OOC. I want to reply, but every time I join something I feel... I don't know. Left out. Or the fact that most people there hate me. That doesn't help me in the slightest. I don't find it as enjoyable as I used to. Part of it is you aren't around as much as I'd like and the other part, of course, is the hostility from other members, the drama that always seems to be going on and... most people that I RPed with are gone now. Every day I have it set in my mind that I'm going to go through the posts, fix them up, remove some of my characters, etc. but it never comes. I can't bring myself to do it. Doing that would mean that I have to confront the situation, the situation that VDL isn't my favourite RP anymore, it isn't free of drama, and it's full of people I'm not terribly fond of. Though it should be obvious who those people are.
I'm not sure what you mean about "shallow surface shit," though.