8 fears

[penguinfaery]

8- Alien abduction. Aliens fascinate me. The though of waking up and seeing a gray staring at me from the end of the bed makes me want to pee myself.

7-Car accidents. I have been in some nasty ones, but the though of how dumb and inconsiderate most people are, and and the destructive power a car gives them...fuck.

6-Submarines. Fuck them.

5-People dying. I don't give a shit about dying. I'm terrified of people around me dying. My mom was seriously sick when I was a child (Cancer, breathing issues.) More then once I walked home to find paramedics outside my house. It has always been something that was always front and center.

4-The ocean. How big it is and how much it hides and how if you were plopped down in the middle of it...nothing. You've got nothing. No one will find you. There is just limitless nothing not only above and around you, but below you.

3-My body falling apart on me. Especially my hands.

2-I am not squeamish, but certain kinds of death (In movies...and I guess irl) freak my out. I won't go into gory detail, but certain ones just get to me.

1- That everyone secretly hates me, and is waiting for a chance to leave. Ju once asked me why I was afraid of that, that it would never happen. I think Ju proved my paoint fairly well.It has happened enough that I don't feel it is an unreasonably fear. And it makes me feel so deeply helpless, and I try not to dwell because it's also the kind of fear that becomes self fulfilling. I do not believe that was what has happened with any of the times it HAS happened, but it could.

Comments

[i-id.livejournal.com]

So, can I assume you don't want to tag along for a leg of my epic cruise?

(Some-mun, if you don't remember this journal.)

[penguinfaery.livejournal.com]

As long as you swear to me if we start sinking you will shoot me before I end up in the water, and don't expect me to go swimming out at sea.

Except I am also compelled towards water, and getting into it. Never having been at sea, I dunno what would happen then...

[gruesome]

idk if I'd be willing to swim out there. There's a whole lotta nothing.