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penguinfaery) wrote2012-02-13 11:17 pm
penguinfaery) wrote2012-02-13 11:17 pm
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So I have been down and out with bronchitis+an ear infection the last week and a half or so. Missed 3 days of class and 4 days of work. Today they gave me an Nebulizer treatment and an inhaler because my cough has once again settled into stay.
Joy.
And my computer return is still being "processed" so who knows when I'll get it. AND my phone is once again spazzing out. If you type in it in facebook, plurka, the browser or text messaging, half the time it freezes up and exits out of the program.
So I have been cut off from the internet. And sorta the world. I hate going back to school after a week+
I...dunno my thoughts on RP right now, actually.
I have been hiatused for a month +
And I feel deeply out of the loop. And I really...I dunno. Like. I have people I miss playing with a lot. A whole hell of a lot.
But also...a solid handful that are turning me off. And I hate to let bad ruin my fun, but there has been so much negativity, and so much I personally have negative feelings about who...aren't doing anything but having fun in ways I don't like. And that is my problem, not theirs. And I just...where as new characters or people I don't play with use to be this magical box of unexplored potential awesome, right now I am just like "...meh."
And I hate feeling that way. Like...a cliquey, bitchy, cranky old rper. It's pretty much the opposite of what I wanna be, and I dunno why stuff that normally I let roll off my back like water off a duck's butt is sinking into my bones.
I dunno. Hopefully when I get my computer back and actually CAN be involved it'll just slide away. This isn't the first time I've been dissatisfied with rping, I bet it won't be the last. But throwing myself into PSL and Meme's has just been so damn appealing lately. But...I don't want to lose people I adore, and story lines, and the stuff I do enjoy and love. And people always say "We'll stay in touch! It's won't matter!" but I find that's more often not true than it is true.
Joy.
And my computer return is still being "processed" so who knows when I'll get it. AND my phone is once again spazzing out. If you type in it in facebook, plurka, the browser or text messaging, half the time it freezes up and exits out of the program.
So I have been cut off from the internet. And sorta the world. I hate going back to school after a week+
I...dunno my thoughts on RP right now, actually.
I have been hiatused for a month +
And I feel deeply out of the loop. And I really...I dunno. Like. I have people I miss playing with a lot. A whole hell of a lot.
But also...a solid handful that are turning me off. And I hate to let bad ruin my fun, but there has been so much negativity, and so much I personally have negative feelings about who...aren't doing anything but having fun in ways I don't like. And that is my problem, not theirs. And I just...where as new characters or people I don't play with use to be this magical box of unexplored potential awesome, right now I am just like "...meh."
And I hate feeling that way. Like...a cliquey, bitchy, cranky old rper. It's pretty much the opposite of what I wanna be, and I dunno why stuff that normally I let roll off my back like water off a duck's butt is sinking into my bones.
I dunno. Hopefully when I get my computer back and actually CAN be involved it'll just slide away. This isn't the first time I've been dissatisfied with rping, I bet it won't be the last. But throwing myself into PSL and Meme's has just been so damn appealing lately. But...I don't want to lose people I adore, and story lines, and the stuff I do enjoy and love. And people always say "We'll stay in touch! It's won't matter!" but I find that's more often not true than it is true.