Terra

So I have been down and out with bronchitis+an ear infection the last week and a half or so. Missed 3 days of class and 4 days of work. Today they gave me an Nebulizer treatment and an inhaler because my cough has once again settled into stay.

Joy.

And my computer return is still being "processed" so who knows when I'll get it. AND my phone is once again spazzing out. If you type in it in facebook, plurka, the browser or text messaging, half the time it freezes up and exits out of the program.

So I have been cut off from the internet. And sorta the world. I hate going back to school after a week+

( Some thoughts on RP. )

So, my car's transmission is going out. Plus 5-6 other smaller things (Serpentine belt about to pop, something loose that needs sanded down and screwed back down, a lose leaking cord, that sorta thing)

The guys who are pretty awesome, and going to fix it, said $850-$1100. They're going to spend the next few days checking junk yards for parts, then come get it Sunday and bring it back Midweek.

As we are leaving not this Tuesday, but the Tuesday after, I am a SMIDGE nervous about this, but...giving the extra time also saved us a few hundred.

AND my mom is leaving to go to California the same time were leaving. Which is generally not a problem buuuut our dog? Is neurotic.

Deserving so. He was really badly abused before we got him, and when he warms up to someone he is...amazingly sweet. But he also takes for ever to warm up to people, dog, etc...and doesn't like traveling. (And my Grandmother, who my mom is going to take care of, lives in assisted living where no pets are allowed)

And hates being left alone.

We're going to see if he can stay with my dad, and if not Kiona is going to come visit him, because he likes her.

Oy.

So I got a $20 parking ticket at CU. But being as how I parked in that lot about a dozen times not knowing you needed to pay, I think it evened out.

And then the lady was like "First time? You can just pay the $3 it would have cost to park there. And if you park at this lot that's only a little bit farther away after 5, it's free!"

Fuck yes.

It pretty much makes up for spending $30 on two piece of fucking paper today. I hate being an art student some days. Nice paper though. The guy almost cut it hamburger style instead of hotdog.

And it was cute, someone left a Kingdom Hearts note under our windshield (We have a heartless sticker on the back) although the first bit was the note about "There are many world under one sky." and being in the middle of the Dark Tower atm I was like "OH GOD WHAT IS THIS?!" And then saw it was Kingdom Hearts-y, and it was about 80 times less surreal.

My girlfriend is almost playing living back brace. It's pretty sweet

O HAI SUCK.

So, our car quit yesterday. So I've been stuck in Boulder.

Including for a German test.

Awesome teacher said we could do makeup, however.

So I assess the damages tomorrow. Buuut I sorta knew this was coming, so it was not out of left field. Or like...I knew my car needed some serious TLC. So had the money whittled away.

Monthly meme~!

( The list )

Day 16 | A song that makes you cry (or nearly)

I will follow you into the Dark by Deathcab for Cutie

Hands down. Always. Usually in a good way.

(2nd, 3rd, and probably throughly like 80tyh would be snow patrol songs, including Run, Chasing Cars, and Make this go on forever.)

Can't say I didn't try.

Still, probably the most...IDK I just had the word. Productive, honest conversation we've had in years. And I....just regret there was a brick wall that couldn't be knocked down.

I've been crying, but...I also feel...lighter. I dunno.

OMG REAL LIFE.

classes|

My classes this semester are (All on Tues/Thur):

Intro to Women's studies*: 10-11:15
Art Theory and Criticism: 11:30-12:45
Drawing 4: 1-3:30

AND

German 1: 5:30-7:45 WHICH HAS A $200 BOOK WTF

BUT German is with Bevvy~! ♥

I'm really worried about Intro to Women's studies Like...it could be awesome...or not. I really wanted to take GENDER studies...but that's upper level.

work|

I generally enjoy it. It's been...not terribly exciting. But everyone is super nice. And it's money, and money makes the world go round.

mac|

I can't watch video. Between no speakers, and funky visuals...just don't expect any video watching from me. Which....darling, we need to discuss the Supernatural marathon this weekend. I can put the episode on my flash drive, and I really wanted to host it here but...no speakers=no fun.

misc|

I have been REALLY missing the desert. IDK why. But like...desert pictures have been comforting me a lot, and memories and stuff. I'm thinking I might bug my dad about camping on his property as it's....desert like.

Anyone game? ...anyone having camping shit? It probably would not be till the weather warms up...significantly.

I just...IDK. Joshua trees, and the huge sky, and everything has been...home lately.

I also think bare trees are one of my favorite visuals. Specially with beautifully colored skies behind them.

Ok, so Bev's grandfather passed last night.

I don't think she'll be around much this weekend, so if anyone wants to give me any messages to give her, I will pass them on, and if you wanna call her personally, e-mail/IM me for her parents #.

My mom's best friend's other best friend husband passed, so my mom has been supporting Sharon a lot so Sharon can support her friend. Cloud had just made a post about how your significant other shouldn't be your best friend just so you had this kind of support system. It's sound logic. I think being in a triad, I do manage to find the one loop hole, but it's an interesting thing to ponder on.

We were also discussing (Ju and me this time) the mentality that both of us ran into this summer that friends can put your through anything and have no consequences. Amanda tried to patch things up with her at least twice, and although Alex didn't try that, I know when he started that fight he didn't mean it to be the end (He said as much bluntly) but there seemed to be some belief that he could say and do anything, and I'd deal. And I'd bet money in that circle I get shit for not "Trying enough" or something. I know Amanda tried to pull that on Ju.

It's weird to me, and I'm someone who fully endorses talking shit about people you love. You can't ignore that friendships aren't all sparkles and sunshine, but you can't go the other way to down right abusive either.

Kiona's gonna post a list of rules for arguing from her sexuality class, and I really wanna see them. Shiiit I miss her.

And I'm suppose to call her. Hehe

Before I go, have a gorgeous video with a gorgeous song:



This is the part of the concert I cried during.

Just in case anyone was confused, ever:

I have beliefs I like quiet well, I don't need to borrow anyone elses. Yours may be awesome, but I've been cultivating mine for 23 years and I enjoy them quiet a bit.

Thanks.

Guys, really, cut it.

I'm not reading any of your journals. I'm done with this childish, high school bullshit, and am happy that I have so many not awesome people cleared out of my life. Seriously, I lost one good friend, one friend, and one person who was touch and go who I was trying to make things better with (Until she called my gf a skanky bitch and generally had issues with her own sexuality all over the place), and all three? I have seen since I was silly to be fighting for the amount I did. Sure, there are some sideline friendly acquaintances I enjoyed that are gone, but really, they weren't people near and dear to the running of my life. I'll miss them, but in the same way you miss kids you went to HS with.

I'm not fighting for any of you for a reason, and it's not lack of arguments.

I'm glad to have you out of my lives (And I'm double glad it all happened at once so everything can be over and done with and I can get to the rest of my summer without lingering bullshit.) The people who mattered in my life showed up, and showed up in droves, when you all decided to be a bunch of nasty children. I have avoided being a petty bitch out of respect for those that deserve it (And trust me, there were PLENTY of opportunities along the way) so do you really wanna be the one out of us who didn't rise above it?

So please. Stop posting nasty things about me (and my loved ones). Stop spreading nasty lies. I'm done with y'all, please be done with me. You're not upsetting me personally, in the slightest (just reinforcing why I pulled away in the first place), but you are upsetting people that you DO have relationships with. And really, if I'm so worthless, why is it even worth causing the smallest amount of tensions between you and YOUR loved ones to gloat?

Again, no comments, because posting this is more then I want in my journal. If you matter and care, you can PM/e-mail me. (honestly, this post would be the opposite of friends-only...not friends only, but IDK how to do that.)