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gabbygabe you have no made it so I have to keep my icons at an acceptable amounjt of awesom :3

I realized how NOT a girly-girl I am this week. Which is interesting as me and Cloud have been having like...talks about gender/what makes gender, etc. But in hanging with Steph and Shea I just realized...I felt like a man hanging out with them. Not in a bad way, hanging out with them was actually fun, just...very different. I don't know, I don't tend to...like, I actually think I'm gender androgounous, but I kinda slide around so I have super girly days, and super guyish days, but nothing to any extreme, but I don't think any of my friends back home are super girly girls either, so I had forgotten how to be around 'em.

I actually, for being so anti-social lately, have been in a lot of different social situations. Which is really good, because it's pretty much exactly what my therapist has told me to do. Work on rebuilding my support. Even online...like not with everyone forever, but there are many people I've been feeling much closer to, and I've made a few new friends, which I don't think I've done sans Cloud since first joining OA.

I dunno, it feels good. I'm feeling more balanced lately by leaps and bounds. I still wanna go in and get a medical evaluation (Because going "Oh, everything's better, no need to worry about it now!" when I'm not in the middle of it, especially with the possibility of it being bi-polarism, seems overwhelmingly not smart.)

AND. I have the money for California generally taken care of :D Happy day~

The 70's version of JC Superstar is so overwhelmingly chill. Likely due to the fact everyone involved with making it was likely high as a kite.

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"I don't know how to love him, I don't know how to move him, He's a man, he's just a man, and I've had so many men before, in very many ways, he's just one more..."

I often default to the boy in a group of girls. With any size of group where it's not one-on-one, the group needs someone to serve as the boy, or else the girls will end up talking in front of the restaurant with no one to open the door for them, or getting so into the conversation that they forget to check the crosswalk.

You called me Cloud! Nice. It's a strong name XD. I like it when you call me Skies too, though right now it's a bit nostalgic with the way Forbidden Skies turned out. <3 I'm glad you're feeling more balanced, that's always a good way to be.

My mom sang that in church when she was 7 months preggers with me. Had a bit of a different connotation then XD

I don't at homem but maybe cause Bev by and far out mans me.

I switch between both pretty easily when it conversation (If I'm around Ju it's almost alwayys Skies tho cause that's what she uses)

@ your mother: Nice! That is quite interesting.

"Out-mans" you, that made me laugh.

In speech Alex used to say to me "Howdy Cloudy" which I thought was cute XD~ *hugs*

Beve can out man some men. She's awesome.

Daaaaw

I can out-man males in terms of chivalry and being sensitive to a woman's needs, in fact that is so easy I don't have to actively think about it. It's the tough straight girls that I just can't please, the ones that actually want a partner that is insensitive and doesn't get them.

It's the protection factor where I fail, not from lack of want but simply a ill-equipped turn in genetics. I'm a cute little doll to be dressed up and cutesy and shy, except I'd rather be the one throwing punches when someone makes a crack about my girlfriend's voluptuous breasts. In which case they'd break me in half. Now I know why men compensate and buy huge trucks they don't need. Except I'll compensate a little more efficiently and hire a bodyguard.

Much more logicall. You ok baby? I saw your post....

"She'll be alright, just not tonight,"

Yeah I'm just sad about things with Ash... long story but we'll surely talk about it in the coming weeks since we're ending things when I leave for Japan. I'm off to sleep for the night, enjoy you're crazy timezone. Oyasuminasai~ <3

and I realize I used two "we's" in that sentence. We (you & I) will talk about it as we (Ash & I) will be breaking up. Okay now goodnight xD

dammit *you're-your* timezone *shoots self* okay gnight

XD I figured it out love

Ok. I love you baby. Hopefully I'll actuall catch you on IM soon, I fails.