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Fuck you fuck you fuck you. You were just going to abadone me like they did. You said as much, so why should I be nice.

Fuck you. YOU WERE MY FRIEND. Friends don't not talk to each other for month because of shit like that. And fuck you they weren't real conversation. They were to me. People wonder why I'm so fucking insecure about geting close to people online...shit get thrown back in my face. So yeah. Fuck you. I'm not going to be nice this time. I'm gonna bitch and rave because every other time I didn't and the outcome was always the same. At least hopefully I hurt YOU this time too.

I fucking hate this shit. People who act like it's just the internet. Well fuck you. You abdoned all this shit a long time ago. I don't give a shit if you just came to some realization. While you were realizing shit, a friendship died.

No I'm not gonna be fucking nice. I was nice to them, and what'd I get but stabbed in the back? And you bring them up and throw them back in my face. YOU KNOW HOW FUCKING MUCH WHAT MAI DID HURT ME? RAE AND SENPAI? You know I still cry sometimes when I stumble on old shit?

And fuck I'm crying all over the place now. Fuck fuck fuck.