Terra

Ugh. Not being on the internet has made me feel...IDK. Very separated.

I'm trying really hard to fight it, but also, not sure how much I care anymore. I'm not one of the "cool" kids (And yes,I'm quiet aware that being the cool kid on the internet is kinda like being crowned "Miss Idiot Savant" but eh) and I'm tired of trying to be.

I just feel like so many of my bonds with people are fake, or a lot more important to me then to them, and I'm reminded of it every time I log on lately in some way or another. Nobodies said anything bad, I just feel very forgotten.

I'm also probably going to drop at least one rp. I'm waiting till I get back because I don't think it should be a choice made on hiatus, but there's at least one I find my self rolling my eyes about every time I check the flist, and rping should be fun, not a chore. I'm staying there for all the wrong reasons now, and that's...eh. There's better things to be doing with my time, and I'm not the type to stay around to watch the train wreck. But maybe I'll feel better about things if I can just get involved again, even if I think I've been locked out.